Thank goodness the holidays are over.....

I made it past Thanksgiving - I was sad but got through it. I was proud of myself. I had a few weeks of work and then off again for Christmas. I knew that would be hard. We had planned on doing things while I was out since I would be with my family and he would be with his for the days around Christmas. So I had time alone to just think about what I would have been doing. I really worked to shake off the blues. Then he sent me a Merry Christmas text. I felt like he was rubbing it in that I was alone and he wasn't. I can read a lot into a text, huh? Unfortunately, his mother went into the hospital. We were supposed to have a Christmas lunch but even after she was released she needed to rest and I headed out to see my family. So we talked on the phone and I planned to visit between Christmas and New Year. I got back and she's in the hospital again. This time it looks like she won't be coming out again. I am so sad. For her, the family, for me to lose a good friend. Only the family is with her. And I'm not family any more. I don't want to cause any stress by trying to see her. I will remember her as I saw her last. Laughing and telling me how happy she was that I was her friend. Her Christmas card said the same thing. I'll be keeping that one. I already miss her.