sunday
I woke up and for a moment it was alright. Then I fel the panic seep into my body. I tried to go back to sleep but it won't let me. I am so filled with panic and anxiety-AGAIN. There is something very wrong with me...there always was. I turned my life upside down when I had security and a home ...for what? to feel this every day? fucking stupid...always was. Only one day down in this holiday weekend. I don't know how to get through it. I keep trying to distract myself but doesn't seem to be working.
It's double pain...bad enough all the things I am going through to move out away from Steve, but I thought I had made a friend..he said he wasn't going anywhere and that he would help me through this...and then he just dropped me like the piece of trash that I am. If you are reading this bridgie, I love you and thank you for helping me through yesterday. I just don't want this pain anymore. Poor Remi, I think I have taught her to have panic attacks too.
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the nausea and sweats have hit...I just keep telling myself it is just the anxiety and I am not getting sick. ....ah and there are the heart palpitations again...good maybe it will just quit.
Honey, I know how hard it is to get through anxiety attacks. You just have to hang on.
I hope you are looking for a roommate maybe, so you can find somewhere decent to live? Once you get away from that S.O.B. I hope you will feel so much better.
Great big hugs