substitutions

Well, I went a whole 24hrs +  ('bout 36?) without drinking, which is grand, but I ate a whole pint of B & Js yesterday.  Why can't it just be about making it thru a day/night without drinking, bingeing, purging, screaming, spending money i don't have, cutting, giving into other shameful impulses which shall not be mentioned...WTF is wrong with this picture?  I'm on F'ckn meds, for goodness sake.  what more does it take.  And in sorta in counseling...
 
i know, i know, gotta do all the "work" in between, DBT and all that.  But I'm just too overwhelmed.  Disorganized.  Disoriented.  unsupported.  And exhausted.  i could go on, of course.  but too unmotivated to do so...