Stress
I am trying very hard not to throw up right now. Today is my first math exam. My mom started texting me this morning, freaking out. She has been trying to get her house sold so she can move to San Diego to be with her boyfriend. (only my mom could meet a man gaming on Xbox-Live at 70 years of age and have it turn into a real relationship). It looks like the sale is going through and then she will have a month to get moved. She is panicking so I have been sitting here trying to calm her and get her to make lists. I was going to study some more this morning before the exam but I don't want to do so much I am burned out and can't think when the time comes. I get freaked out and then I see one number but write down something completely different. Just another example of the fucked up brain chemistry of an anxiety freak.
Last night when I got home from work, he was home already. He said, I'm taking care of everything so you can study. WOW, ok. I went in and started to study. The animals usually eat at 6:30. Remi was already bugging me at 20 after. He yelled from the other room that he would take care of it so I went back to studying. At 7, I couldn't take it anymore..now the cats were glaring at me as well. I went in and started to feed them and my phone goes off. Who the hell is texting me? While I am making their food, I look at my phone. It's a text from him saying I love you in script. He's out in the backyard texting me while I am supposed to be studying? He comes in and says...did you get it? I'm like yeah, looking at him weird because he never texts me while we are at home..and I am supposed to be studying. He says, I just updated my phone and wanted to see how it works. He finally notices that I am feeding the animals and says...oh, I'm a bad dad. This morning he left, never said hey good luck, or anything. It was so weird, why come home and say you are going to help me out and then not do it..and suddenly text me while we're at home? He's home early, we were having a simple dinner of chicken salads and leftover soup, so all he had to do was grill the chicken. We still ate at 8. FML
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Thats ok you'll live
Yeah, I still have a barf bag under my desk LOL
I don't see any real stressful situations there. I tossed two days ago, had my car keys stolen or thrown out to a new car I bought, keyed and money stolen out of it. I agree with bill youll survive..How was the math test?
it sucked. I don't feel good about it at all. Feel like crying right now. I'm so dumb I can't even pass repeat math I should have learned in high school. Good news though...I posted a couple of days ago that I didn't think I could cry anymore. Just proved that theory wrong. At least the drunk will not be home tonight so I don't have to put on a face.
I am sorry u are under so much stress, its almost as though your mom passed the torch to u during her phone call and got u 'infected' (with anxiety) your man has no idea his affect on u, and u hold things in a bit too much- men- even the saintly ones are not psychic- and things sometimes need to be spelled out (repeatedly) this is not a statement to minimize your feelings- on the contrary, I want u to express them, I think that's a key factor in your anxiety stress, u know, when u r getting ready for a test and your mom calls, shes a big girl- u don't have to answer- u can turn your phone off and study- if u don't put yourself first no one else ever will.. good luck xoxoxo