Still feeling empty

Oh how much I'm missing Gene right now.  I think of all the things I've been through since he died and can't believe I've gotten this far.  Now I need work done to my car and I don't know how to handle it all.  Today is an especially bad day and I feel so empty inside knowing I'll never hold my wonderful man in my arms again.  I can't even go into our old bedroom without falling apart.  Today I laid down on his side of the bed and just fell apart.  When will things get better.  When will the emptiness go away.  Right now I feel like it never will.