still

Having trouble with understanding.  Can't understand what what wrong and when it went wrong.  i can't sleep and i think about it everyday.  Still i think about everything to the point that it's unhealthy.  i just want to be ok.  i want it to be the way it was but that will never be again.  i dream about but it will never be.  adjusting to the new and not the old is becoming harder to do but its for the best.  i just dont like it now.  depression does cloud my mind on a regular I want to be normal and want to be ok on my own.  I miss her and think about her every day i have good days and bad days.  at the moment its a bad day.  ive had a few good days but right now i just miss her