Starting to Get Some Momentum
Happy today!
Woke up enthusiastic for the first time in a long time. While I love running my own business, I didn't find it exciting or enjoyable while I was gambling. In fact, while I was gambling, I seldom found much enjoyable besides gambling or shopping. All I wanted to do was gamble, "cash in" for something awesome, and then go back and try to win more. Except I ended up paying 3-5x what I would've paid for the items I bought because I lost more than I won, especially towards the end. That, and I didn't really want to go back to the mall at all towards the end. All I really wanted to do was just keep on playing.
But today, yeah, I started to finally see the light through the clouds. Got up, saw my therapist, ate lunch, and was excited to come in and work today.
Good stuff. Very good stuff. I'm not saying that it's easy, but it's good.
Woke up enthusiastic for the first time in a long time. While I love running my own business, I didn't find it exciting or enjoyable while I was gambling. In fact, while I was gambling, I seldom found much enjoyable besides gambling or shopping. All I wanted to do was gamble, "cash in" for something awesome, and then go back and try to win more. Except I ended up paying 3-5x what I would've paid for the items I bought because I lost more than I won, especially towards the end. That, and I didn't really want to go back to the mall at all towards the end. All I really wanted to do was just keep on playing.
But today, yeah, I started to finally see the light through the clouds. Got up, saw my therapist, ate lunch, and was excited to come in and work today.
Good stuff. Very good stuff. I'm not saying that it's easy, but it's good.
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