Stage 5.. Acceptance.

This morning at 2am I was getting ready to go to bed, when suddenly it hit me.. I went through the 5 stages of loss and grief after my break up with my ex Adam of 2.5 years. My entire life changed when we broke up, I lost part of who I was and I can clearly see that I went through the stages.. Denial, Anger, Bargaining, Depression and Acceptance. I went through some serious denial.. that stuck around up until about a week ago when I finally came to my senses and let myself see that it was over, he is happy with her and it's time for me to stop telling myself that they're going to break up and he'll come back to me. I was angry... that came in pretty strong waves.. I hated Amanda, with good reason, but I was also angry with myself and him.. I bargained a bit too.. and I went through some serious depression too...that cannot be denied... I was messed up from that break up, there were days all I wanted to do was drink until I didn't wake up, I wanted to take a bunch of pills, I almost started self-mutilation again... I had a pair of small sharp scissors that I held in my hand and wanted to shove straight into my leg.. Looking back at all of this, it makes me sad to think that I got so bad.. I really did love him with all my heart. I finally hit acceptance though, and I'm finally moving forward in a healthy way. I am happy for them, I do still miss him but my heart doesn't ache for him anymore. I don't know if we will get back together, and if we do, I don't see it happening for a long time...like..5-10 years. I'm moving on with my life, I'm not just going to sit and idle by waiting for him to come back to me. I'm trying to be happy, for real this time. 
I've been seeing someone recently, Kory, he makes me feel so good about myself.. It's an amazing feeling. He takes me out, and he treats me so incredibly well. Always a plus, him and my dog love one another. We're going to go camping this summer, and go shooting! I'm really excited about it, I really want things to work out between him and I. 
My best friend Scott absolutely hates Kory... All because of some stories from drunken nights, he's never actually gotten to know Kory, it's really quite sad. Scott gave me an ultimatum... my best friend of 5-ish years, or Kory.. I chose Scott, initially, but I kept speaking with Kory and tried to convince Scott that Kory is a really nice guy and makes me happy.. Scott wouldn't hear it. He threatened me, said if I speak with Kory I will never hear from him again, he would walk out of my life because he refused to sit by and watch me get hurt by him... Scott doesn't realize he's the only one hurting me right now. Scott crossed a couple lines though... At different points in our conversation he said Kory would mess me up worse than my miscarriage did, and as we all know I was severely messed up from that... depressed and suicidal.. Scott saw me on new years, he knew how hard that miscarriage was on me. He also knows what I've been through... and he had the audacity to say Kory would rape me. I was ready to kill Scott.. I snapped, my bi-polar disorder completely took over and I lost it on him.. Needless to say, he hasn't spoken to me in days.. He's also sleeping with my ex girlfriend Jessyka, and lied to me about it.. I don't care if they wanna be together, I support them completely, but they snuck around behind my back and lied directly to me. 
Wednesday afternoon (around 3pm) my mom got into a major car accident. Against all odds, she's okay, walked away from it with no serious damage. She's in shock, and extremely sore and has to go through physiotherapy, but nothing is broken. She was stopped in a line-up of cars waiting to get on the bridge and some guy wasn't paying attention and rear-ended her at full speed.. smashed into her and pushed her into the car in front of her as well. His vehicle is totaled and ours is a write-off as well, the woman in front luckily only had minor damage to hers. My mom sat and watched in her rear-view as this guy came flying at her, she knew he wasn't going to stop and there was nothing she could do about it.. It's amazing that the stress of it alone didn't cause her to have another heart attack (she's had 3 and open heart surgery). When I think about what could have happened to her... It makes me feel sick.. and I have to fight crying. She wasn't supposed to be out driving... she had left work early to go to the doctor....except her appointment was for thursday, not wednesday... She wasn't supposed to be out driving.. I'm thankful that everyone is okay though, that is the most important thing.
I texted Scott...I really needed my best friend.. he knows my mom, and he's always been so incredibly supportive whenever she's been sick and/or hospitalized.. but he ignored me... It broke my heart. I honestly thought he would get over himself just long enough to be supportive about my mom.. He doesn't even know if she's okay.. For all he knows she's hospitalized or worse. It angers me that he's acting so childish, but I guess there's not much I can do.