So torn
well.. its getting closer to that time.. I move out soon and now T regrets everything.. I'm hearing "I love you" and "I'm so sorry" "I never meant to make you feel so alone in this marriage" "I never meant to hurt you" .. you show signs of strength and they suck you right back in there...
im just a mess today and I've decided to stay in bed all day.. I have zero drive..
i don't want to go backwards..
my heart is distracting my mind because I feel so much..
yesteday while out The entire time going over the new place (that i still haven't committed to yet) i was getting text messages asking to come home to make love.. make love? What the hell is that anymore?
This is exhausting!
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Sorry you are having to deal with this. These emotional mind games are painful and exhausting. So...he wants you to forget everything because he's horny? The hell with that...he gets what he wants then the process starts all over again. Think of yourself and your feelings. I think you are making the right choice.
I had to move...it was tough at first, then I began to notice how peaceful it was here. No fighting, nobody to call me names and put me down. No nagging, just peace. Loneliness does set in from time to time but that's another issue to deal with down the road. All part of healing. The no contact is great, highly recommend...it stops those annoying mind games.
You are going through so much right now, take care of yourself. Stay strong
-HUGS-
i'm so sorry you're having to go through all this. always feel free to reach out
Thank you to the both of you!