so bad feeling
i cant remember what i have journaled about but i think i already journaled about work but it is worse now. this coming week she has me down for 8 hours, 2 4 hour shifts!!!! i was doing computer tests that are required and she came in and we talked. i said look, i have been here a long time and i know what goes on when you or a department manger doesn't like you, doesn't think you are doing a good job or just some other stupid reason, you use the schedule as a wepon, so which one is it? she told me it is the job, it is not a good fit for me, i am just to slow. mind you i have only been doing it since nov. 11th. i told her i have been working as hard as i can and how does she expect me to make a living and that my insurance will drop, she just shrugged at that. of course a lot is my falt, i have limited availability, and she was pusing front end, cashier, i do not want that and my knees don't like standing in one place. i need to open my availibity, they are the busiest up front from 4-7, and they already have a steady day crew. WTF i actually talked to roger, my old deli food cout managar and i had vowed to not go back there but he was very nice and wants to help me out but on top of everything they now have to submit the schedule not just the week ahead but the next week too and no changes unless approved!! gail never mentioned that when she kept saying check other departments. i am going to go back to the other bigger store, the manager is very nice and see if there are openings in say produce, while i apply and hopefully something comes up. i am so scared, how will i buy fod, pay bills, i are not getting healthy over all this, anxiety hugh, depression starting and ED is high. i just never thought this would happen and i only have myself to blame, i should of stayed where i was and getting my hours, doing my job good.
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Sorry to hear you\'re struggling at work. Hope you\'re able to find better hours at the other store. I also hope that you\'re somehow able to take care of yourself during this trying time. Praying for you.
I hope you can get this worked out... It\'s like they want you to quit. I hope things get better soon
I\'m Telling You get out of there! That place sounds like a crock of shit they don\'t respect you and obviously not providing the hours you need to make a living I\'d be so mad
so agree and thanks for the above comments. ceecee you are right they don\'t respect me and have me feeling now like i am no good, the old feeling of shame has come back. i got a job at macys, pay is bad but it is some income, still applying elsewhere, with hopes i can land something. i am very mad and so upset even though yesterday was productive, i feel down. yes larissa, the want me to quit and i hope i can find a god job so i ca say bye bye now. cant burn my bridges though i have 11 years invested
OMG that is great that you got a new job. I think that will help you clear your mind and help bring perspective. Change is a good thing, I think change is necessary to help us not stay stagnant. This job also might be better on your body
I am still at price chopper, I will not quit until I have steady income, this is a seasonal job and pays less and I am not gaureteed that I will be kept on. but it was a good feeling to be offered the job! I am still actively looking and applying, it is going to be confusing, which I don\'t deal well with between the 2 jobs, never knowing what hours or days I am working, I have never done this before and I get overwhelmed so darn easy. it will definetly be better then the job I am doing though. hugss
Well hang in there Ann and this change could be fun :)