Session 2

I wasn't sure what we would talk about since it had only been a week, but the session felt productive. I shared how receptive my husband was to my setting boundaries and the ways he showed me that he was respecting them. Jessica helped me realize that the boundaries I had set with my husband about where and how he touches me actually make me feel safer. Cuddling is now just cuddling, it's not cuddling with the expectation of something more. He knows when I'm ready to advance I'll initiate it and together we'll reconnect sexually. I do want to reconnect, I'm just a bit hesitant still. I'll get there.

We also discussed workplace drama that occurred and how stressful and taxing it was on me. In talking about it, I realized I did use skills in defusion, they simply didn't work this time. I also recognized my own mental health was suffering and I left the situation. It isn't my job to fix other people - I tried and when it didn't work, I completely disengaged for my own well being. 

Worth noting - my body currently feels extremely heavy, I'm finding it hard to type as my hands feel very weighted, and my brain feels foggy. I am in some sort of dissociative state. It's an odd sensation. I took a pause and did the 5,4,3,2,1 grounding technique - I feel slightly more present but still disoriented. I haven't taken anything, so it's definitely psychological. How odd.