Saturday night

Well, the new windows are in and they look wonderful.  But all I kept thinking while they were putting them in is how Gene was going to do it so he's been on my mind all day.  I'm dreading the holidays again this year.  Paul and I have decided to go to Gene's brother in laws for Thanksgiving so that should be a good day.  Christmas is another whole story.  I'd love to put up the tree this year but decorating with all the ornaments Gene and I have collected over the years makes me anxious and sad.  Thinking maybe the kids can help me out when they are here for Monday night dinner.  I could make it a tree decorating party and have some finger foods and drinks for us.  Gotta get through Thanksgiving first.  I've been reading journals of some of the new folks on here whose spouse has just recently passed and it brings back all the memories of those early days of my grief and makes me realize how far I've come in the last year and eight months.  It breaks my heart to hear there stories though.