Sat MOrning

WE are not even halfway through the weekend and already I am tired of being picked apart.  I am in a pretty pissy mood..a reflection of yesterday.  Nothing I do or say is ever right...If it is not HIS way it is wrong and I am sick of it.  I am not all together and I make mistakes...fucking get over it and get off my ass.  If you can't speak to me in a kind and loving way then shut the fuck up.  I do not want to hear it today.  I do what I am asked to do and I still get snide remarks and attitude.  It is no wonder I don't look forward to things anymore living with him.  I emailed him yesterday from work and asked him if he would go to costco with me when I got home from work...I said I would buy him a hot  dog for lunch.  He said he wanted to...I was in a pretty good mood...going to costco just to look for a few specific things for xmas gifts.  He says do you want to get a cart?  I say..I don't know if we are even getting anything so I'm not sure.  He says well don't we need things while we are here?  I said well I don't want to spend a lot of money stocking up on household items til after xmas if we don't have to.  I would rather save the money toward gifts.  He gets all mad and says well we can't go without things I guess I should have made a list when you asked me to go.  I did not say anything but he knows when we are out somewhere and I get really quiet that I am super mad.  By the time we left there he was trying to be all sweet to make it up because his radar is going off and he knows he's pushed me to the limit.  It is always over really stupid stuff....and it is not about what actually happened but the way he speaks to me.  I told him a while back that I wanted there to be love and joy in our relationship and I was not kidding...and I have not changed my mind.  I don't know what it is in his nature that makes him be so mean over stupid little shit...but I'm done with being his doormat.  I guess that is what makes days like the other day so rare when he actually saw I was stressed and made me laugh instead of being mean.  I does not work the other way however...If I try that and joke when he's upset he just gets more angry with me.  Oh Patricia...I am venting all right...I feel like I am just getting wound up today. 
Yesterday afternoon he said if you make another pot of coffee put it in the thermos cause I want to wash the pot...so he was running the dishwasher late afternoon...or so we thought.  Later I went to get the coffee pot out to set the coffee for morning and after I opened it up I noticed nothing seemed clean and looking in the door I saw the soap was still in there.  SO...I said ..did this not run?  He said what do you mean?  What did the lights say on the front ...I said I didn't look I just opened figuring it was done by now.  He got really pissy about why didn't I pay attention before I opened it....?   I closed the door again and then saw it was sitting on 2 hour delay...so he had made a mistake and not started it immediately..he hit the wrong button.  Am I jumping his ass for not running it or pushing the wrong button?  NO.  I said well you know me I am stupid and didn't notice the lights.  He said well just don't run it and after we make coffee in the morning I will run it.  so I said ok..took out the coffee pot and made the coffee.
We get back from the gym this morning and he looks at the dishwasher ...really snotty I get ..Why didn't you start this?  I just look at him..ummm because you told me not to....you said leave it.
well the lights are still on and it's annoying.  so..I do what you ask and I'm still in trouble?
and he says I am the pissy one?  oh yes...you betcha...I am NOW.