Sat Aug 27, 2011
I actually feel pretty good this morning. Maybe I got the whole anxiety attack out of the way on thurs. lol Sitting here hoping the sun comes out soon. Feel like I can actually get my ass in gear and look forward to the day. Since I am visiting in a different area I think I will see what shopping I can get done while I am here...we definitely have no shopping in the valley ugh. Feeling kind of fiesty...maybe find a Barnes and noble and buy a colorful cover for my new nook.
Hurricane Irene is hitting the East Coast...Jimmy if you read this I am thinking of you both and hope you are doing ok!
This last week has not been a good one for my relationship. Found myself searching al anon quotes again. Found a new message board...same exact feelings as me. This is not unique to me...just how I choose to deal with it.
The person's question was "how do you know that you have had enough?"
I frequently wonder that myself so I started reading on...she says:
I just thought why does he not want to spend time with me, I spend way too much time alone. I refuse to feel like a victim. I am just tired and unmotivated.
Again, sounded realllly familiar...so I read on...
someone answered her with:
when do you know that you've had enough? It's hard to explain, but when you've finally had enough it will be clear to you and you'll know it. No doubts, second guessing, etc. - you just know. ¨..why does he not want to spend time with me¨ Because he would rather spend time with his alcohol. It's not a reflection on you - he is an alcoholic, he does what all alcoholics do - they drink. It is a disease and comes first with them before personal relationships or anything else.
It is exactly what I struggle with daily. It is also so very true. I have said many times that his true love is the silver bullet lol
Hurricane Irene is hitting the East Coast...Jimmy if you read this I am thinking of you both and hope you are doing ok!
This last week has not been a good one for my relationship. Found myself searching al anon quotes again. Found a new message board...same exact feelings as me. This is not unique to me...just how I choose to deal with it.
The person's question was "how do you know that you have had enough?"
I frequently wonder that myself so I started reading on...she says:
I just thought why does he not want to spend time with me, I spend way too much time alone. I refuse to feel like a victim. I am just tired and unmotivated.
Again, sounded realllly familiar...so I read on...
someone answered her with:
when do you know that you've had enough? It's hard to explain, but when you've finally had enough it will be clear to you and you'll know it. No doubts, second guessing, etc. - you just know. ¨..why does he not want to spend time with me¨ Because he would rather spend time with his alcohol. It's not a reflection on you - he is an alcoholic, he does what all alcoholics do - they drink. It is a disease and comes first with them before personal relationships or anything else.
It is exactly what I struggle with daily. It is also so very true. I have said many times that his true love is the silver bullet lol
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