Rolling along on another Monday...

Yes, it is Monday again.  It is also finals week.  I cannot wait to be done with school for the semester.  I have been struggling with keeping everything together.  The weekend was not much to talk about...pretty boring...got homework done though and a few other things off my plate.  All the out of state xmas stuff is wrapped and ready to go.  I finished the baby blanket I was knitting...washed and wrapped it ..and then laughed at myself..I am such an idiot.  I always say when I am done I am going to take pics of them before I give them away so I can look back on the work I have done.  I get so excited when I'm finally finished that I get them wrapped...and then I'm like...oh crap...I forgot to take pics.  Well, maybe after she opens it she will send me a couple of pics. 
Today was my first day back at the gym in almost a week.  It felt good to go and I woke up before the alarm..almost looking forward to the day.  I am tired though and the pressure on my chest is a lot today.  I have my echo on thursday(as well as my history final).  The holter monitory test is not until Jan though.  Guess I will just have to be patient ( yeah right) and wait it out.  I had quite a bit of anxiety over the weekend though and that also makes me tired a lot.
He was going out of his way to be very sweet to me most of the weekend..but I could see it was a struggle for him.  Do I annoy him so much that the smallest things cause him irritation?  My tolerance for his anger and belittling of me are at an all time low however.  He snapped at me about something so small and insignificant in the car over the weekend that I cannot even remember what it was.  He is catching himself now though...I said why is it you have to speak to me with such anger in your voice..and he tried to turn my words around on me and make it into a joke....and said I'm not...I am speaking with love and joy..and started to laugh.  I just looked at him.
 

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weinere46
weinere46

Oy vey iss mere...
AnxietyFreak40
AnxietyFreak40

Senor, Desert girls rarely speak Yiddish LOL
docsamson
docsamson

Sorry you are going though this. It\'s always hard to have to deal with that sort of negative force. Go to your happy spot and try to just smile. It will drive him nuts.
deleted_user
deleted_user

People who tease are actually playing with shame.

When somebody is picking at you over personal activity (and I understand the irritability that will cause that), it\'s probably time for someone to take a chill pill or find something else to do.