Proud Day

I am proud of myself.

I am proud of myself.

I am proud of myself.

I actually ate pretty much all three meals today. And I had real food. And I didn't binge or eat only chocolate. In fact I didn't have any chocolate. Well, I did have cake (technically not chocolate...:P) for my brothers birthday celebration. But that was the only sugary food I had. It wasn't easy and I definitely felt embarrassed eating dinner while my roommate was here and felt shameful for eating, but I did it nonetheless.

Now, I'm a little nervous for tomorrow because Tuesdays are my most difficult days to not only because the kids I nanny are a handful, but to top it off they always have chocolate and I tend to not eat all day then just snack on chocolate when they stress me out and then I hate myself more after.

Tomorrow that will not happen. I will journal 10x throughout the day if I have to.

Thank You GOD for finally a good day. Not to say I didn't feel shameful, but boy am I grateful to finally have a day where I don't feel like I'm the poop and scum of the earth.