what makes each day different
the day is the same hours
your body is the same
if you thought of your body as void with no emotional factors
days would be the same
eat ,movement ,sleap
the hard wear and time factors and enviroment are quite constant
its the programing that makes a good day or a bad one
some days nothing happens and its ok
  other days nothing is happening and its torture
its the mental soft wear that has changed
.i seem to be happy when obsesive  but all it will damage me
take away the obsesions and i will become depressed and self destructive
but i need to think my obssesion is worth while or i will also fall in to despair 
i have very little to focus on ,of worth
and i am suffering