place
tonight i went to a place
and the time i remember being there last i told a friend
i had 27 cuts on me
so the place wasnt that great for me to be
the place had not changed at all
makes you wounder if i have at all either
i still think about it
things are just getting so tier some
that i cant even type about it anymore
so much is out of my control
im having massive memory jump backs to bad feelings and
bad times
and i find my self snapping out loud about it
also there are right now problems
and emotional fights going on that i cant stand
and the time i remember being there last i told a friend
i had 27 cuts on me
so the place wasnt that great for me to be
the place had not changed at all
makes you wounder if i have at all either
i still think about it
things are just getting so tier some
that i cant even type about it anymore
so much is out of my control
im having massive memory jump backs to bad feelings and
bad times
and i find my self snapping out loud about it
also there are right now problems
and emotional fights going on that i cant stand
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but you could reflect on how far you\'ve come, no?
you have come far.
when you have these memory jumps, it\'s exhausting.
the bad feelings and bad times. it\'s all so tiring.
small, small steps to climb out of this. one thing at a time
and patience and gentle with YOU is key.
no harsh words to yourself. be very, very kind to you.
Samadian you have a lot of patience with me
and things are to the point where
i dont have the will to even type about
im having a lot od social problems
,its like every direction is just falling
what happens if you let it fall?
ill be totally alone
and that is awful?
you know, you might be totally alone for awhile.
but since i\'ve known you, you\'ve been involved
with two women. I really don\'t think that you
have an issue there.
the issue is how you feel about you.
that is all skewed from the past.
do you ever meet people who seem to have
irrational fears? Beautiful women who think they are ugly?
i think you are a man who is afraid of being alone when
you have no trouble meeting women.
just give yourself some time to be totally alone.
i mean you are anyway. we all are.