pissed

today I'm pissed.  I'm pissed more at my mom than my dad.  She's known she has osteoporosis for years now, and has refused to take anything for it, when it was reversible, doesn't want to know what kind of food has calcium, or didn't, it's prob to late now.  That's the sort of bullshit that makes caretakers of their elderly parents want to just leave them sitting in their own fucking shit when they shit themselves, because they could have done something to prevent their situation.  I tell you some people may be calling APS on my ass when it comes to my mom (Adult protective services) because she is not trying at all.  I guess I should have sympathy for her because I too get depressed and want to give up, but then I get back on track for at least a while.  I still haven't lost weight like I want too, but I still try,  I mess up today I get up and try again tomorrow.  I haven't lost family I was close too like she has,  that's cause none of them were anything but fucking backstabbers to me so the stink of their shit doesn't even sail my way anymore, cause I got nothing for most of them.  The others weird me out so I stay away from them too.