once a freak..always a freak
why does everything always have to freak me out? How the hell did I become this mouse? Here I go again with the anxiety...
I just went to pick up my new prescription and get dinner...I thought I was just going to get regular old Panda like we frequently did on Friday nights. the thoughts just keep coming...
it's a different Panda...what if I get sick?
what if the food is bad?
food poisoning? REALLY????
My heart skips a little...I think of the prescription on the table..what if the new medication freaks me out?? He and the kids are going up to the mountains to see his dad..I am all on my own.
What am I going to do if I am sick and I am all alone?
MORON
I am crazy..my counselor said today she has panic attacks all the time but she recognizes them for what they are and goes on with her life..How do I ever do that?
I know other people battle these same things for years..they never get better...they may recede for a while but the never improve...so why keep trying?
I just went to pick up my new prescription and get dinner...I thought I was just going to get regular old Panda like we frequently did on Friday nights. the thoughts just keep coming...
it's a different Panda...what if I get sick?
what if the food is bad?
food poisoning? REALLY????
My heart skips a little...I think of the prescription on the table..what if the new medication freaks me out?? He and the kids are going up to the mountains to see his dad..I am all on my own.
What am I going to do if I am sick and I am all alone?
MORON
I am crazy..my counselor said today she has panic attacks all the time but she recognizes them for what they are and goes on with her life..How do I ever do that?
I know other people battle these same things for years..they never get better...they may recede for a while but the never improve...so why keep trying?
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Because your a fighter and that is what us fighters do!
But there are tricks that each person that has anxiety learns to use to fight them off. You need to learn yours, your counsilor should be able to help with that. Best of luck, Eric
STRESS girl - it is STRESS from the health issues and all the changes you are going through.
BREATHE!!!! It will get BETTER!!!
Be very gentle with yourself.
((hugs))
I sometimes feel like that too and I just think is it worth it but then I\'m also realising that it\'s good to carry on and fight no matter what. You\'re a lovely person at heart and you have so much going for you. Best wishes. Andrew