off days
yesterday I felt kinda okay, though had no apetite but forced food anyways, dinner was esp. hard, no hunger at all. it is not because of an actual sickness, I just feel off, I have been dizzy, getting headaches, sometimes heavy leg feeling and I didn't do a bit of exercise yesterday.
I did make myself have breakfast yesterday and I didn't get a headache but this morning my heart feels like it is racing a bit and I don't feel good, I woke up hungry biut it is gone. even my ears feel plugged today. I wish I didn't have to go to work but then I would have a pity party and fight ed all day by not eating till the right time and making myself exercise to prove worthy. all it takes is an hour or so of walking, minimum on days off must do other stuff. I have to get rid of the thing on my phone that counts steps, I am driving myself crazy with it. yesterday I did laugh, only walked 1.2 miles, but didn't always have phone anyways.
I wish I could get the will and desire to fight harder and listen to my body and know truly what I am doing, though I say I do. I look at myself and see I gaunt looking face, years older looking then I am, and a nothing shape, yet I still look to see if the bone is there on my cheeks and chest, WHY???
I did make myself have breakfast yesterday and I didn't get a headache but this morning my heart feels like it is racing a bit and I don't feel good, I woke up hungry biut it is gone. even my ears feel plugged today. I wish I didn't have to go to work but then I would have a pity party and fight ed all day by not eating till the right time and making myself exercise to prove worthy. all it takes is an hour or so of walking, minimum on days off must do other stuff. I have to get rid of the thing on my phone that counts steps, I am driving myself crazy with it. yesterday I did laugh, only walked 1.2 miles, but didn't always have phone anyways.
I wish I could get the will and desire to fight harder and listen to my body and know truly what I am doing, though I say I do. I look at myself and see I gaunt looking face, years older looking then I am, and a nothing shape, yet I still look to see if the bone is there on my cheeks and chest, WHY???
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Your off days sound nasty. If I remember rightly you had some blood tests done recently? Have you gotten the results yet?
Im glad youre eating but it would be even better if you had a good appetite to enjoy your food more.
well, I never got the blood work done but am going to go this morning and have it drawn and hopefully results in before I see the clnical ED doctor next week. I know I am not getting the right nutrients in the fod I eat, protein bars and almonds and sometimes yogurt with fruit and granola, that one at least is a real food. I see my therapist today, I have seen him for about 18 years, he gives me my scripts and is also my therapist. I don\'t want to go, never know what to say, don\'t know how to put things into words.
The headache sounds like a lack of food which causes them. Also, stress will cause them. I understand the dizziness and headaches as well but if you don\'t start feeling better soon, I hope you will go see your doc. Do you suffer from Sinus Infections? Those can also cause both of those other symptoms. Please let us know how you are feeling, okay? HUgs