nothing much

i haven't written here in a while. Haven't really felt like i had anything worth saying.  work has been super busy but not in a bad way.  my new boss is great so far.  Nice not to be in trouble all the time.  It is my birthday on Sunday and I am really feeling this one.  How did I get to be this old?  I have been feeling very moody and depressed.  I forgot to take my meds again yesterday. By lunch I felt like crying.  I had to go pick up my new contact lenses and now my vision is all blurry.  They told  me I needed to give it 48 hours to adjust.  I have never had this happen before and I think they are full of crap. Now I have to go back monday and get them checked again. 
 
My boyrfriend started a new job. He now commutes to the bay area everyday and I am alone til 8 at night.  When he does come home there is dinner and then he's ready for bed so he can get up at 3:30 and start again.  I guess eventually he will have weekends off but right now it's half day saturdays also.  Most of the time I don't mind all the alone time.  I'm not good at keeping up with relationships anyway.  I can't even manage to check in here on a regular basis.  
I got pretty spoiled having him around to cook all the time. Now it falls on me.  I spend most of my free time while school is out playing my stupid farm game.  Sometimes I think I should do something productive but that does not last long.  
As I am faced with another birthday I can't help thinking that I am just a waste of space.  I feel as though all I am doing is killing time waiting for this crappy life to be over..