not a happy morning
Last night we had to go to my parent's house for dinner. It wasn't as bad as I expected. We had dinner (way too much..felt like crap afterwards) then made s'mores. I had two roasted marshmallows and a graham cracker. Felt even worse after. On the way home Carlos pulled out a Boost, my mom had given it to him to make me drink. After many arguments I drank the damn thing. I left about 2 sips left in it and threw it in the garbage when I got home.
This morning I woke up feeling fat and disgusting. Then Carlos didn't go to crew practice so I could not weigh myself. Great- now I KNOW I gained weight. Luckily I took a few laxies last night which should help.
I did make an amazing carrot cake this morning though :) Though had some of the batter, scrapped the bowl clean and ate it. UGH. I love it but it's so bad for me.
This morning I woke up feeling fat and disgusting. Then Carlos didn't go to crew practice so I could not weigh myself. Great- now I KNOW I gained weight. Luckily I took a few laxies last night which should help.
I did make an amazing carrot cake this morning though :) Though had some of the batter, scrapped the bowl clean and ate it. UGH. I love it but it's so bad for me.
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I eat left over cake batter all the time. It\'s way better than the real cake. Last night I can only imagine how bad you feel. Actually I know how it is. It sounds like a mealplan after iP and seems like total overkill. You have to stuff yourself while everybody gets to stop when they are full. It\'s probably a good thing that you couldn\'t weigh yourself. The laxies are a bad thing. I don\'t have to explain the danger but you know you will lose some weight and the next day you will gain because your body rehydrates. So it really just sucks. How much longer do you have to be on supplements. Seems like you have been on them forever.
its terrible to feel you have to keep eating even when full, i dont think i could do it. could you stop when you are actually full and not feel like crap afterward. and then taking a laxative, its not worth it. they are so bad for you. better to deal with any comments and eat less and feel comfortable. just follow your meal plan. not so easy i know.
follow my meal plan. HAHAHA. I haven\'t followed that since um....February?! As for supplements...probably be on them forever especially since I don\'t drink them...I only have them if Carlos is sitting in front of me and makes me drink it. I usually am able to pour it out or just say that I drank one. And if I continue to lose weight then Jill will want me to do more- though she knows I won\'t.
Sounds like you aren\'t recovery oriented at all. Very sad!
I don\'t care about myself anymore.
like I said, very sad