Not a good day

Feeling rather blue today.  It's cloudy here and we're supposed to get rain.  Hope it's just the weather making me blue.  But I miss Gene so much today.  I dream of him often and wake up feeling good most times but sad the other times.  I dreamed he was laying in bed with me and I could feel his body up against mine and his arm around me.  It was so wonderful I didn't want to wake up.  Going back to counseling this week.  Haven't seen her since October.  But since my mom died, I just feel the need to talk to someone who understands what I'm going through.