No one seems to understand, break ups hurt.

Regardless of who broke up with who, it still hurts when a major part of your life is over. My friends are acting like nothing happened, and began talking about how they never liked him and they're glad it's over... I'm still in pain. I still love him. My heart hurts for the loss I feel. Yes I broke up with him, my sobriety was on the line, I was fighting depression (easily triggered with my bipolar disorder) and I had to make a rational decision.. It hurts so bad. I know I made the right decision... I need to move on with my life. It's hard because when we were good, we were incredible.. But he had the power to make me feel worthless and pathetic without even trying, just by ignoring me and rejecting any plans I suggested. I will always love him, I have for years and I will continue to. Some things never change.