No "internal monologue"

There's a new internet sensation: not everyone has an internal monolgue. I read about it, then had discussions with friends, and found out that I am the weird one who does NOT have an internal monolgue. Having heard what other people experience, I feel it would be overwhelming to have an internal monologue commenting on every interaction. I did not realize it was weird to not have an actual concrete thought about something; but apparently it is. 

Interestingly enough, I have been studying cognitive behavioural therapy this term and it is all about these automatic thoughts. I was having a difficult time relating to the experience people have with automatic thoughts because I did not understand what it means to have them. Now that I have a better understanding of what it means for people to have this cognitive filter I am better able to understand the theory. 

My friend Harley got mad at me the other day saying I always think the worst of him. I did not understand this because I honestly don't think anything about him. He told me that I always expect him to do the worst, for example, to splash me with a cold water bottle while walking behind me to join in the hot tub. If I did anticipate he might do this act, I wasn't thinking negatively about him or the action, because it's something playful that we've done to one another. I feel he's actually trasferring his own cognitions onto me. He always expects the worst of me, so he's flipping the scenario. He always expects me to say something mean, or reject his friendship in some way, which I have had a difficult time understanding. Clearly he is the one with negative automatic thoughts about me, not the other way around. I just don't have automatic thoughts.