no change

ive cut down on the drinking dont drink much but a bit to take the edge of stuff and my dreams are awfull agian and in them im screaming at people and crying  im fighting people hitting them and against people who are aufghity figures one said give us the money for the  soup you ate so i had my fingers down mythought trying to be sick  to piss them all off  im trying to get out of places and people keep making it hard to get out and make me seem crazy  lots of crying  i cut my wrist with a large knife in front of them all  at one point someone ment to be my sisterwas asked  to come up to me  i screamed at her in tears....  say one thing we did together she looked lost and said .....met some people ??? and i left   even out side i was having probles with passer bys ---------------------------------------------so lost of these fighting people dreams again they are very hard to cope withi am so quiet really and all this emotion is  here somewhere