morning ramble & time to get ready......

any of ya'll ever have pre-dental appt. guilt?  it's only 9:37 am and i've already flossed and brushed my teeth twice since i woke up.
one would think that i am having audience with the dental pope.  where did all this guilt come from anyway?
i got one of those unexpected think i can's yesterday around 3:30.  decided to head over to pharmacy land and p/u meds.  stopped at the store feeling very determined.......got the food donations into the store.  which felt like even more effort than i'd imagined, lol!  the donation bins were gone.  what??? no.......what??? 
a nice young lady tells me why the bins are gone.......sigh.  she says she is going to her church after work and can drop off the bags for me.  seriously?  awesome!!!  i hope it can be a blessing to a family.  we grew up poor..........we didn't know we were, but we had our suspicions........probably cause our Dad told us weekly that we were going to the poor farm.  laughing.......this morning my heart is light.
kind of surprising, cause i started the day by watching part of a terrible documentary.  a hollywood actor who announced he was retiring from acting to turn rapper.  it was beyond awful, later they tried to pass it off as a hoax.  i only made it a short way in, the thing was so .......far beyond not good. 
but in that short amount of time observing this filmed dreck i thought about life on this pretty blue marble of ours...........how we all lay claim to an address here......but the planet we live on can vary so greatly from room to room ......street to street.  sounds like i'm being a floaty drifty head........but seriously we can live within our ears or we can embrace beyond our minds and try to keep our feet on balanced level ground. 
as a chronically ill person i can get pretty wrapped up in the womb of my existence inside my little nest.......i don't want to stop having an awareness of, a consideration for and compassion for our world.  some of the people i know from life before disability (or LBD, no not Little Black Dress, but Life Before Disability........argh, ack)  are into naysayerdom.  the world is going to hell in a hand basket kind of thinking..........others are into self destruction, some are into rebuilding.  stop the blame and make it better.........i read an article about a growing number of young adults who are taking positions of responsibility for more than just themselves at reduced salaries, working hard, being satisfied with less.............by actually living within their means.........and not wasting a whole lot of time crying over who spilled the milk before it was their turn up at bat via their lifetime.
in other words they aren't blaming anyone past or present for economic downturns, they aren't angry, they are aware, they are awake, they want to do their best to make earth better.  not via bitterness......no, they want to use a vehicle of betterment for all.
and i can't lie, i am impressed.  they carve out these small niches to live, be self supporting, to give to others, to have a purposeful life...........they seem to me to be so wise beyond their years. 
sorry, i'm rambling again............my bad! 
i am going to dry my hair........take a nap and then get ready for all things dental.  lah de dah.
God is giving me what I need today to get ready to go and get dental help...........sweet!  thank you Lord!!!!!!!!
thinking of you.........gonna look forward to catching up on your journals, etc. when i recup from today's drill........"mommy, don't make me go...............!!!" she said........i am trying to be brave here, but i am still a scaredy cat dental patient...........please ask the Lord to remind me to breathe in the chair today!!!!  hugs, sparrow