Monday Sept 5th 2011
My sadness this morning is overwhelming. You would think that after all these years he and his true love(the silver bullet) would not be able to hurt my feelings...but I fall for it time and again. All the talk yesterday of a nice dinner and romantic evening together...I should have known that what he really meant was that as soon as dinner was over he would pass out on the living room floor. I know better....so why am I so stupid? Why do I keep letting this happen?
I think it's just what I deserve. Who else is going to want an aging wack job like me? I could not go to sleep last night. I am so tired. I have to start a new goal and cut down my caffeine. I think this coffee addiction is getting out of hand. I finally got up and took another buspar to slow myself down and a couple more ibuprofen to check the aches and pains and crawled back in bed...I guess I finally drifted off sometime past midnight.
I think it's just what I deserve. Who else is going to want an aging wack job like me? I could not go to sleep last night. I am so tired. I have to start a new goal and cut down my caffeine. I think this coffee addiction is getting out of hand. I finally got up and took another buspar to slow myself down and a couple more ibuprofen to check the aches and pains and crawled back in bed...I guess I finally drifted off sometime past midnight.
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We face some very difficult decisions in life and it is sometimes not easy to know what the best decision is to make. We simply do the very best we can.
Rest well and hope life improves soon.
:-) Patricia
That is what my boyfriend started to do to me, until I started to do it with him and from then on it has been anxiety all on my, no much on him, or at least he won\'t admit it. I don\'t think it\'s good for either of us. I started to be so anxious before he wakes up for some reason. I would wanna leave. Now I don\'t wanna really get out. This is so much of the same. I think it is problem solving and beyond it. Just communication and getting close to one another as we are growing up. You know though I felt he was always kinda of distant from me.
Maybe we need to reconnect with our significant others. You know it. Find a new way of communication.
Try to be positive. SMILE. ;p