Monday Sept 19 2011

Maybe it has been all me all along.  Maybe I am the only problem here.  He asked me last night what I wanted to do and I had no answer.  He asked me what we could do together that I wanted to do and I had no answer.  I don't care about anything anymore.  There is nothing that I look forward to in this life.  I am just broken inside.  I have been broken since that day of my first anxiety attack 8 years ago..maybe even before that. broken. I feel like I'm going to be sick.
He's right.  all I do is get on the computer or read a book or get on my phone...it's just a different kind of escape from the beer is all.