Monday..before Xmas

OK...there is nothing worse than typing a whole journal entry only to lose it before it is posted....frustrating to say the least.
It is another Monday...but my last one before my vacation.  I am looking forward to the time off but as I was having my usual Sunday anxiety I found myself wondering if I could stand being off that long without much to do.  I would have liked to go see my mom in AZ while I am off but he is still not working so we cannot afford for me to go right now. I guess we are doing pretty well together considering all that has been happening with us.  I am sure it is very depressing for him to be stuck at home all day every day without anything decent to even apply for. (personally, I say that is what we get for living in the armpit of California...Oh? you live in the Central Valley?  ....what's near you?  Nothing?  Modesto?  famous for murdering husbands and drug making?  ha ha ha ha..sorry got off track) 
I know that yesterday's anxiety was triggered by the heart flutters I was having.  Since the surgery I had in July they had slowed down over time as predicted to the point that when I do have a bad day and have them again I usually have an anxiety attack.  I tried to ignore it for a about 3 hours then finally just gave in and took an extra dose.
I have a few knitting projects to keep me busy...still...rather have an anxiety attack than deal with the one eyed Nazi.  ha ha.
not really that busy at work but interrupted often enough that I have lost this post three times....sigh...yep it's monday.