Monday Aug 29th 2011

I wish I could say I thought this was shaping up to start of well but I'm afraid that's not going to happen.  I already woke up kind of tired and worn out so having the eldest wake up early...on her own...and say she didn't feel well..great...felt like I was going to have an anxiety attack already.  I know she does this and is probably fine.  It doesn't usually have her up early though unless she's going to start her period.  I am looking forward to classes starting this week but am nervous also..always on edge till after I get in there the first time.  Then I will be fine. 
I did end up going with them this weekend.  I started having anxiety on friday afternoon and the idea of being here all alone all weekend did not sit well.  I knew either way I would be in trouble with someone and true to form my mother called Sunday and was upset I was out of town and did not tell her and did not plan to spend time with her.