Monday 20170911

It’s a very strange time for me.  I am trying to just listen and pay attention to things going on so I can figure out what direction I am supposed to go in.  I’m very up and down from day to day.  I suppose to a certain extent that is to be expected with all the changes in my life.

I was by myself all weekend again since it was a ‘kid weekend’ for the guy I started dating.  I did pretty well keeping my mood up and keeping busy til about 3pm on Sunday.  That is when things finally caught up to me and I started to feel down.  Add to that the people I chat with most often when I feel off all seemed to be busy on Sunday/ Afternoon evening and it was not a good combination. 

There is another guy that I have been chatting with for a while.  He lives in LA so we have not met in person.  He makes me laugh a lot and refers to me as future girlfriend which always makes me smile.  I told him that I have been seeing someone else and he seems to be ok with being friends but even he was busy last night.  I still also am not ruling out the possibility of moving down to San Diego.

I will just keep plugging along and trying to find the answers. 

Today I am also battling what I believe will turn out to be a UTI.  I’m flushing my system with liquids today hoping for improvement but looks like I will have to make a doctor appt.