mixed issues

i have been waking up or waking up early with an anxious pit in my stomach, like doom is about to descend, yes it is on days of work but that cant be all. it is an awful feeling, makes me feel sick and weak. i am getting all bruised up again over nothing and my 2 fingers on right hand are cut and swollen, sore, something i must of done at work i guess. i have had some sucess in not purgng for 3 days but i feel gross and feel like i am gainign weight even though i am supposed to. yesterday i wasnt hungry for lunch, all worked up at work, hugh tension and aggravation, and i couldnt remember if i had eaten anyhing besides saltines, it was then 2:45. i have been staying away from any nibbles were i have been chewing and spitting, so no eats. i wasnt hungry at all but made myself eat my bar. i walked farther after work with nala, even she was tired but then did nothing, what a slug. i have lately had no desire to do anything after work other then walk nala. i feel my body is losing all muscle it may have ever had. well, off to another day and i am going to try and not let it get to me!