Missed work today

My ambition level has been down since quitting. But I think it's because I have finally accepted that I need to be a whole person before I can become very successful. And letting go of my addictions is a big part of that.

It's just gambling and food, but they were both taking up so much time, energy, and making me feel so guilty and so low on self-esteem.

So I need to stop feeling so anxious. I need to accept it's going to take a while before I can knock it out of the park again at work. Today I just needed to rest and lay down. I'm overwhelmed but I believe I can get past this and learn to have goals and priorities and responsibilities, not obsessions and preoccupations.