Middle of Chaos
My TDoc had a major insight, I need to always place myself in the middle of chaos. I am the happiest when my job is juggling several balls in the air and just one day away from complete disaster and ruin. All of the military jobs that I had in which I did exceptionally well were like this. I have tried to arrange my life towards chaos. Everything I have done is to increase the chaos. This is where I feel more comfortable and strangely secure.
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That's an amazing insight! I hope it gives you some confidence and you keep exploring this topic with your therapist. Good job!
I'm so glad that you've had this revelation, hopefully it will help you manage your life and thoughts more clearly and have a positive impact on your life, you've got this! I'm the same way, I thrive on chaos but I've learned to stay away from certain forms of chaos that do me more harm than good, I do hope you keep exploring this insight and gaining more and more insight on yourself and I'm very proud of you! it's not easy to dig deep but you did. wishing you all the luck and strength in the world, you've got this!
Who says your Tdoc is useless? I think that insight is worth it don't you?
MayB - I think so. I've always liked the TDoc she is doing a good job. It is good insight.
I'm glad I perhaps mistakenly thought that seeing her 2x a week was of dubious purpose.
I still think it is of dubious benefit but I am going along with the program for now.