Lonley Im so lonley

All i feel is the tears that desperatly wanna come out. But I wont let them. What if i never stop?
I wish someone could be here. All i need is a hug from someone who knows. Something gotta happen.
I cried yesterday when my mom left. I cried today when i got home from therapy because now im alone again. I come out from therapy and all I can think is, 6 days left to next time. I'll go home and crawl up to a ball as usual. Wait til i have to go outside next time.
Why am I like this? Why can't i just suck it up and go out and do stuff instead of isolating myself.
 
ugh
just
bye