Lonely but hanging in there

I have not signed in here for a while.  The bustle of the holidays and getting my mom moved here to California has kept me busy.  Work is busy and stressful as ever.  It is so exhausting trying to always get new technology to work with our aging servers.  I spent all day yesterday trying to force a 64 bit machine to a 32 bit OS and finding drivers that would work was a nightmare but I left on the winning side.  I'm hoping to have my business up and running soon but finding time for that and studying with all that's going on and still having a little time to relax(and hopefully keep the anxiety at bay) are not always easy.  My mom is here now and I rented her a house that my company manages where she can have the horses and dogs.  I must say I am looking forward to spending time with the horses.  Junior has not been ridden in the last 6 months though and mom has not been up to it so I have been working him when I can on the weekends.  I can't wait til it stays light late enough that I can work him in the evenings as well.  The once a week is not doing much for either of us.  He's a handful but he makes me laugh which is so nice.  The anxiety has been on the fringe but so far no full blown attacks in quite a while.  It's just in the background reminding me just enough to make life feel depressing.  peachy.  Made me smile to log on here today and see hugs from people who don't know me but still care anyway.  Weird how I can feel closer to my daily strength friends than to people I live with every day.  Maybe it's because they have the same daily struggle as I.  Time to get ready for work.  tried to chat with a friend but meebo is acting all weird.  oh well...on to another day :)