listening to myself

I feel good today, filled my mind with loving affirmatiions, off to a good start.  Then I get out of bed and my body reminds me, the healing is still a work in progress.
Learning to listen to my pain, so I relax my body and turn my attention inwards, tracing the pain signals from my shoulders, down my spine and into my hips...
"Maxine my darling girl who I love so much, I hear you crying out.  What are you trying to say?"
I'm scared, I'm hurting, I'm lonely.
"I can see it in your eyes. How much you have suffered, carrying around inside you the pain, anger,resentment, fear and insecurities of generations.  Your body crumbles beneath the weight of a burden that is not yours to bear, here, let me take it..."
"I can see also your loneliness too.  You don't feel like you fit in.  You don't feel acknowledged.  You don't feel heard.  You've got quite a scream don't you, it gets people's attention but they still don't really hear you do they?"
" Here, let me sit down beside you, take my hand.  Talk to me, I'm listening'
I feel unlovely
"You are a part of the very heart of God, perfectly made in his Divine image.  You are a beautiful heart.  You are a beautiful mind.  You are a beautiful body. You are a beautiful spirit.  Every part of you is beautiful, you can't help it, you just are" 
I feel unloved
"Every hair on your head is numbered.  Every breath you take is precious.  Come here my precious child, let me rock you in my arms. I love you so very, very much."
I feel lonely
"I'm here.  You never, ever walk alone"
I feel anxious about the future, what comes next for me?
"Sufficient for today for you to heal.  Release your cares to me, I've carried you your entire life.  You have a work to do and for that I need you well rested, well healed and at peace.  When the time comes you will find the strength you need to move forward.  Until then, rest..."
Thank You
"Anytime you need me, I'm only a prayer away"