Keerash!
This one is tragic because it was preventable. Had a pretty good week making my 40hour work goal for the first time in a really long time. Then on Saturday I got into an altercation and blew my top (and when I blow I do it in fine style). The next day my body felt like a gang had jumped me and beaten the crap out of me. Days later I'm still sore, exhausted and struggling to just get through the day. MAJOR setback.
By way of background I have been working on my dream house for 6 years now. Bought it just before I got sick with a 3 year completion plan. At this point there is no longer a date associated with completion, I have to get well first .. then figue out when my home will get finished. About 2-3 times per year I feel well enough to deal with contractors and such and I get some work done on the house. Always ..always..majorly stressful. To being with I am seen as weak because I am a woman. Then because of the fragile health I let them get away with a lot and they try to walk all over me.
I have really grown with respect to just not letting people make me lose my cool..but every now and then the hair trigger temper gets the best of me...
Gotta admit I feel better emotionally .. he had it coming!
By way of background I have been working on my dream house for 6 years now. Bought it just before I got sick with a 3 year completion plan. At this point there is no longer a date associated with completion, I have to get well first .. then figue out when my home will get finished. About 2-3 times per year I feel well enough to deal with contractors and such and I get some work done on the house. Always ..always..majorly stressful. To being with I am seen as weak because I am a woman. Then because of the fragile health I let them get away with a lot and they try to walk all over me.
I have really grown with respect to just not letting people make me lose my cool..but every now and then the hair trigger temper gets the best of me...
Gotta admit I feel better emotionally .. he had it coming!
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Hi MaxPB,
I\'m so sorry...........sometimes the only way to stop the bottleneck is to let it out.......and when we do that OUTLOUD it knocks us for a loop! It topples us off that precarious wall we sit on. I\'m so sorry that you\'re dealing with this stuff.
I did some renovations on my home in 2011.......I hired my daughter to act as project manager. The primary contractor was so nice AT FIRST.......and then one fine day the honeymoon was OVER. It was one of those hard calls.......we felt trapped between a rock and a hard place. When the jerk contractor shows his head at first you think it\'s just a bad day........but then as it continues you think I\'d like to take his head off. It\'s not a good thing for peaceful easy feelings............I think that he thought my daughter & I would be pushovers........after all we\'re women.........time after time he made dismissive comments and other times he tried to use sheepish head hanging and too much buttering up..........it was awful. And sadly there were some worse days yet to come..........looking back I wish we\'d fired his happy tail......the saddest thing? His crew was so professional, so nice, so hardworking..........but he was a diva. He thinks he can get away with anything........yikes!
Having goals, making them happen is all kinds of awesome........is there anyone you trust that could help you by acting as the go between? They would still discuss things with you...........have your best interest at heart and keep you in the loop. Its just a thought...........sometimes we have to delegate to save our souls..............which is very hard, I was a type A do it my way kind of girl..........don\'t know if you can relate to that, but I\'ve had to learn how to be a lot more laidback............stuff still bottles up and bites me in the backside............It takes time to learn new ways to cope with the world........I hope you can rest this week-end. I know that you gave up a lot phsyically/energy wise to deal with his shenanigans. You\'re still a force to be reckoned with and then some............indomitable........slowing down, changing things in care of you is so WISE, no good to you and for you.........and sometimes you have to deal with bratty stupid situations..........just don\'t let an idiot steal too much from you............we just need more minions to do our bidding.......as queen they should do our bidding more and stop aggravating us so much.......hope you can find a little smile or two as you rest............promise to pray for you, your daily life and the bigger goals you have to , like your dream home..........xoxoxo