just barely hanging on
At the beginning of our session yesterday my therapist asked(as she always does)…."so, how are you doing?" I spent the next several minutes telling her how much Im struggling….how my moods are everywhere and so unpredictable and how fucking frustrating it all is. She said that she could see it in my face and hear it in my voice that I am just barely hanging on. She's absolutely right. Ive felt like I could lose it at any moment and go completely over the edge. How Im hanging on I truly don't know. How long can I keep this up? Im so tired of this. Sometimes I think just giving in would be the easiest way to go.
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Hang in there, Pagan, one moment at a time. ((big hugs))
Thanks Sadie. I think thats the only way Ive made it this far is one step at a time.
So sorry Pagan :/ like Sadie said, one step at a time. ((Hugs))
hang tough pagan. i hope you can find your center and some peace. talk to us any time you\'re feeling frustrated with the moods - so you can somehow - even though the moods suck - you can normalize them in a way; It takes the power of them away. Peace man! M
Big hug for you sweetie... If you are having suicidal thoughts or plans Pagan please go to emerg
I was in the hospital for about 3 weeks a few years ago and it was really surprising how quickly life turned around for me and I was in a terrible place... No home, marriage breakup etc... I was a mess
When in the hospital the only thing you have to think about is yourself and getting well... There\'s support around the clock for you... Staff there 24/7... While you\'re working on meds working again there is constant help and support
If you need the help sweetie it can be really great.... Gentle hug for you and a blessing..xo
I don\'t know how I am hanging on either and like you sometimes I really do just want to let go bcs it is tiring and unrelenting... but you see your shrink next week so please hold that ball of hope as it could change everything around again.. hang in there my friend... as others have said ... one moment by moment xx