James Robert's birthday
Today has been a killer. I got through James Roberts birthday, seeing his bench and now I just held a 16 day old baby. The baby was the hardest. It all hit me just then. The memories came crashing down on me. His birthday was hard. To never know he will see another bd. Then I went to see his bench. It was beautiful. Made up from granit. The saying said "to loved to be forgotten." I cried for a long time while I sat there and just looked at his bench. Oh did I mention that my grandmother was admitted to the hospital on James Roberts birthday? Today a friend brought their newborn. 16 days old. GOD so tiny! I so miss James Robert. He was the gem of my life. The only thing I did right. Now it is all gone. I am so lost and hurt. Things seem so dark. I don't know if I can stand it. Life is not getting any easier.
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I\'m so proud of you - you DID make it through this day. How wonderful for you that you are able to go a special place to remember, cry and just BE even though it is so painful!! With my daughter\'s birthday coming up in August, you give me hope that I too will be able to make it through that day! Much love and ((hugs)) Vicki
Oh my dear. I wish I could be there to cry with you. It is so heartbreaking. So many memories. And birthdays and angel days are sooo hard.
You did make it through James Robert\'s birthday. And the bench is a loving tribute.
Yell and scream and throw things. Do what you need to do to release the emotion. I promise life gets better (I know it is hard to believe). Of course it won\'t ever be the same, but life can be meaningful again. I am able to laugh and enjoy my life - but I still cry too.
Please know that you are not alone.
Love and caring hugs,
Marlene
Holding you tightly in my heart and prayers.
Birthdays can be so hard~~ But like Vicki and Marlene said, YOU MADE IT!!! YOU DID IT!!!
I bet his bench is beautiful. Maybe you\'ll be up to posting a few pictures?
I\'m sure holding the precious little babe was tough on your heart. OH how we try so hard to be joyful and happy for others when our hearts are shattered!
I know it all seems so dark right now, you feel so lost....but I promise, it won\'t always be this hard. Will never be the same again, but LIFE can and will return one day.
Keep holding on, keep breathing, and keep taking care of YOU.
Much love and tight heart hugs~~Teri
I\'m so sorry...Cassi was the best thing I did too.
Remember he lives on inside you and all who has been touched by him. I bet he was sitting next to you on that bench. My grandies tell me my son visits very often I do not know it they tell me. Children are receptive and inocent I love what they tell me, it is very comforting. I do believe James is watching over you .
Warm Hugs Penny