its a relapse day but I'm gonna fight it

today is the day i leave the convention and go home.....and tell my family about my breakup. I know its gonna be hard since they really really liked him and would joke about adopting him but I need them to know I dont want to even hear his name for a good long while. Its gonna hurt but its gotta be done, I'm gonna spend a few days crying and letting myself fall to pieces. No social media except for this site and my journals. Nothing but peace and quiet while I find whats left of me and see what can be salvaged.