It's Weds but it's Tues
I just got back from vacation. I went to see my mom. I took Monday off as well so today is Weds but I still feel like it's Tues. I'm all messed up. I haven't been on again in a while. Partly I get busy with stupid stuff, Partly I feel like I don't have the privacy to write in my journal without someone reading over my shoulder. Partly I just get lazy and busy myself with games and books trying to escape whatever. It occurred to me last night though that this is not really taking time for me to get things out.
Having anxiety(or at least nausea) again today. While I was in AZ visiting my mom I looked at a couple of houses. I talked to a finance person and found out that I either needed to have my foreclosure be 7 years or more back for conventional financing or have In-State income to go FHA. Guess I will have to wait a bit longer. It has only been 5 years since the foreclosure. That just gives me time to finish school and put some more down money away. It's hard though when you see some pretty awesome places and can't do anything about it.
My new boss finally started. He's pretty awesome so far. I feel very relaxed at work in a way I have not been in a very long time.
My boyfriend was drunk again last night. He was not mean or obnoxious though so I just ignored him and he was asleep shortly after dinner. He did a lot for my mom while we were in AZ. fixed a bunch of stuff around her house that she needed. Some days I think ..no one is perfect. so he has a drinking problem? He does so much for me and takes care of so much. He remembers things i forget all the time.
sometimes I still feel lonely when he gets like that though. Whether he's awake or not.
OK..now I am really freaking myself out. I was looking in my purse to see if I had any extra anxiety meds with me. I noticed that my daily meds case is still full so I have no idea what I took this morning. I am all jacked up!
Having anxiety(or at least nausea) again today. While I was in AZ visiting my mom I looked at a couple of houses. I talked to a finance person and found out that I either needed to have my foreclosure be 7 years or more back for conventional financing or have In-State income to go FHA. Guess I will have to wait a bit longer. It has only been 5 years since the foreclosure. That just gives me time to finish school and put some more down money away. It's hard though when you see some pretty awesome places and can't do anything about it.
My new boss finally started. He's pretty awesome so far. I feel very relaxed at work in a way I have not been in a very long time.
My boyfriend was drunk again last night. He was not mean or obnoxious though so I just ignored him and he was asleep shortly after dinner. He did a lot for my mom while we were in AZ. fixed a bunch of stuff around her house that she needed. Some days I think ..no one is perfect. so he has a drinking problem? He does so much for me and takes care of so much. He remembers things i forget all the time.
sometimes I still feel lonely when he gets like that though. Whether he's awake or not.
OK..now I am really freaking myself out. I was looking in my purse to see if I had any extra anxiety meds with me. I noticed that my daily meds case is still full so I have no idea what I took this morning. I am all jacked up!
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