it's back again..so far no extra dose
I haven't written in my journal for a while. Seems like it takes anxiety to get me writing again.
This time I have been feeling it coming. I have been chewing on some things lately:work, school,things at home. Yesterday I was just edgy and nervous for no particular reason. This morning I am sick to my stomach and as I was driving in to work I started to feel the tingles that said the anxiety was here. As that to a small hint of question about the quality of last night's dinner and boom..there it is.
The propane went out while he was cooking the chicken and then switched to charcoal. Seemed just fine to me but as we were making our plates he asks me if I think it's done enough..that is all the hint my mind needs. Then I opened a package of salad that seemed a little slimy..but at 3.00 a package I was not going to waste it.
to top things all off I was going out to the garage to put my things in the car and pushed the garage door button. Remi went out with me like she always does but this time she went running under the garage door and before I could get out there and yell she was already two doors down after a cat. She has never left the yard like that before and it happened so fast that it scared the crap out of me. I just kept thinking what if the cat had run across the street instead of next door and there had been a car coming? I am sure that contributed to the whole issue.
really hope it passes soon. I hate feeling like this.
This time I have been feeling it coming. I have been chewing on some things lately:work, school,things at home. Yesterday I was just edgy and nervous for no particular reason. This morning I am sick to my stomach and as I was driving in to work I started to feel the tingles that said the anxiety was here. As that to a small hint of question about the quality of last night's dinner and boom..there it is.
The propane went out while he was cooking the chicken and then switched to charcoal. Seemed just fine to me but as we were making our plates he asks me if I think it's done enough..that is all the hint my mind needs. Then I opened a package of salad that seemed a little slimy..but at 3.00 a package I was not going to waste it.
to top things all off I was going out to the garage to put my things in the car and pushed the garage door button. Remi went out with me like she always does but this time she went running under the garage door and before I could get out there and yell she was already two doors down after a cat. She has never left the yard like that before and it happened so fast that it scared the crap out of me. I just kept thinking what if the cat had run across the street instead of next door and there had been a car coming? I am sure that contributed to the whole issue.
really hope it passes soon. I hate feeling like this.
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