It just gets worse

Man things are so fuckin' bad right now in my head. My mother died and I found out that before she died she made a list of people to contact if something happened to her and I was not on that list. That and I was owed some money I think but she is the person responsible for where my mom's money is supposed to go and there's no way that I will see a cent of that money. I'm having horrible problems with depression and obesity which is still a problem. I am so sick of the way that my life is I feel sick to my stomach and my thoughts do not stop going as if i'm doing the right thing. Am I doing the right thing? Our money situation sucks right now and I can't handle it. My thoughts won't stop and my best friend doesn't have time to talk to me right now. My mind is such a clusterfuck and I can't stop it.