intessions

so im im a bit drunk again
i didnt intend to
but it is
last night i had a very real drram about louise
she rang me oup and said hi you know who this is
i said louise
she said im im ringing about us
i said what ?
us as a couple what do you think?
i said ho yes !
yes name a time
but this time i want conditions
that you will be there and not change
---from there on the dream got a bit crazy
but i was thinking about her before i sleat
how i thought she was the one
and she was really not the one
they all seem to be not the one
i could die and never be with the one
even the ones who love me cant be the one because of bagage  
its so fucked up 
and heres me talking about people that have bagage
wow i see m almost normal at times
people are so screwed up
yes i still feel life is short
im expecting death
and time will be what it is till im gone
maybe it will be a car crash or some failure in my body
but i dont expect to be here much longer