inside Im a mess

yes Im doing better but the war inside is still far from being over

this morning I woke up feeling like my life cant get any worse

IDK maybe it was a dream I had to get me in that mood but it took all day to get my mind at ease

with the MS it limits the things I can do

like before the MS I was able to go fishing or go to the bar to play pool or something

since it's to difficult for me to go anywhere I started a new hobby

I sing... I got a karaoke app where I can just sing and sing

I've never been any good at singing but when I do its like an escape... no thinking for them few minutes

but Im good at hiding what I really feel inside...