Insecure

Today I am really scared that I am fat. I am scared that my eating will make me fat which will inturn make me unlovable.

The thoughts and temptations to not eat for the rest of the day or tomorrow flood on.

It's satan. That's all. I don't even have to believe that it's satan, it just is. It's not truth. It's not.

I don't believe that I am lovable right now, but it's true. I want this poison out of my head, so I will cling to this truth that I don't believe right now.

Satan tells me that I am fat and unlovable.

If that were true, why would I have a boyfriend still?

If that were true, why would Dori constantly love up on me and stay by my side, even if I'm just going to the next room.

If that were true, no one would be my friend today.

I am loved. Even if I don't believe it.

I will fight this.

I am loved.