Im messed up

I've been through so much in my life that one of my councelors told me she was surprised Im as composed as I am... she says most people with just a third of what happened to me end up abusing drugs or alcohal and wanted to know what I did... I told her Im not all that composed or I wouldnt be there if I was... told her I said I would never grow up to be like any of the people that contributed in makeing me the way I am... I broke the chain... my dad was abusive and he said his dad was abusive to him... as for how I dealt with all the things... I dont think I did deal with them... just burried them... later I'll finnish my story and maybe say what some of those traumas were